I truly do...I dont truly know how to explain it, the acts of myself and others are disgusting but all so very human. We kill its in our nature but in excess thas when you have to begin questioning yourself..I do but I never find the answer...but part of me enjoys it, it makes people skin crawl and makes them cringe...but they have never been here and had to make the decisions that we have to make...its either me or them, It most definately not going to be me....ill ad to this another day i need to go calm down ...byes